Post by jaytavare1 on Apr 25, 2009 20:42:50 GMT -5
How do I begin to tell you all about my life with Mohawk... my Samoyed Dog...
It was eleven years ago that I recused him from a shelter, he was a young run away who was very much traumatized, and it took me a while to realize the only way to keep Mohawk happy was to run him every day... and make sure it was fun for him.
But yesterday... after we walked around our usual park in the heart of Los Angeles, he sat under his tree and watched me do one mile laps, as I trained for the LA Marathon... On my last lap I noticed he was starting to have another seizure but this time it was worse than previous ones, he was rolling on the grass not knowing which side was up or down... I had to pick him up for he could not stand and rush him home... he continued to have the seizures which were so disturbing to witness... and finally at 8:00 PM last night April 24th on a full moon night... I had no choice but to put my only son to sleep...
It was one of the hardest things I have ever done... for he looked so great on the outside, as you can see on the new pictures of us in my albums... but the Tumor in his head had reached the critical mass and now it was causing neurological damage and problems...
All I will say is the last eleven years has made me a better man... for to take care of someone else, who is co-dependent on us... teaches us to develop patience, tolerance, self sacrifice.... and responsibility...
As I held Mohawk for the vet to deliver the shot... I was still not sure if I was doing the right thing... To play God is never easy, but making the right decision is even harder... He looked at me with his sweet eyes and exhaled his last breath... I wondered if I will ever really see MoMo again... although the answer may always be a mystery... I do know he is part of me now and I chose to celebrate all the magical fun times we shared on hikes, runs and travel...
I beg all of you who are thinking of getting a dog... to consider rescuing one, instead of buying a puppy... there are so many great dogs such as Mohawk, who are waiting for a little TLC from a human being who needs them as much as they need you... Shelter dogs make great companions... as they know you have given them a second chance and their love towards you will reflect that...
I wish you Mohawk a good trip home my friend... my son... my four legged companion...
I will always remember how much fun and joy your brought into my life... and as the Apache say... Die for the one who cries for you... and my son I did cry a river...
With all my aching heart...
Jay Tavare>